tiffastrosaurus

THESE QUESTIONS I GOT

2010-03-27T03:28:00.000-07:00

On Formspring.

Do you believe in angels?
Yes. Because I used to have one for 8 months. :')

Do you still love your ex? Then why don't you go find a new one?
Yes I still do. And no, I'm still fighting for him.

I dunno how these people could read my mind.

I FUCKING MISS YOU

2010-03-25T05:13:00.000-07:00

I miss the way you called my name
I miss the way you said 'I love you'
I miss the way you said 'I miss you'
I miss the way you said '779 to infinity'
I miss the way you held my hand,
and told me everything would be alright
I miss the way you looked into my eyes
I miss the way you hugged me tight
I miss the way you smiled at me
I miss the way you whispered in my ears
I miss the way you told me we would be together forever
I miss the way you told me sweet things to make me smile
I miss the way you told me your daily stories
I miss the way you told me not to be mad at you
I miss the way you comforted me whenever I was not okay
I miss the way you brushed my hair

I just simply miss you

But what I miss you the most,
The way you held this heart and kept it safe and unbroken

Mike,
If you are to read this post,
I'm just going to show you how much I love you
I STILL LOVE YOU.
I STILL LOVE YOU.
I STILL LOVE YOU.
And forever I will not forget what happened on Tuesday, 070709, 17.45 at tennis class.

(NOT) HAPPY 8 MONTHS OLD

2010-03-06T22:00:00.000-08:00

Yes, we broke up. After 8 months we've been together.

Yes, I cried. But I know this is for good :') I don't hate you for doing this to me, told you I would never hate you. I meant, and mean it. I'm sorry if I haven't been a good girlfriend for you, but I've tried my best. You've been the best boyfriend a girl like me could ever have so far, and I thank you so much.

Thank you for staying in my heart for more than a year, I knew I loved you since we were friends :')
And I know I'm supposed to be happy to see you relieve.

Now I know, today, March 7,
is the day I'm going to learn how to let you go and move on.

Gracias.

TAKE MY HAND

2010-03-01T05:24:00.000-08:00

I've looked for love in stranger places,
but never found someone like you.
Someone whose smile makes me feel I've been holding back,
and now there's nothing I can't do.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

Only if there were another words to show you how much I miss you... those words would've been typed here.
I somewhat want the old you back, but I know people change, either to be a better person, or a worse person. But I know you're doing this all for me. Mike i miss you, i love you, i need you, and i want you. I really, really do. :'(

3110

2010-02-28T22:50:00.000-08:00

Oh, hello March :) God I don't know why, but I'm just sure I am not the only one who thinks that time goes by too fast now, whenever we are together, and whenever we are away. And since it's 3 - 1 - 10, I think I'm going to post (10 + 1 + 3 = 14) facts about moi. This shall be fun! I love writing facts.

Alright, here we go:

1. I'm secretly in love with my own name. I know this may sound gay and... arrogant but, who doesn't like his/her own name? Tiffany means revelation from God, and William means desire and helmet, protection and protector. Pweety.

2. I'm now sixteen, I turned sixteen last January. And I wish this brand new year would be way better than last year. I've had new goals to reach, too. :)

3. I secretly despite and loathe my school, SMA Santa Ursula. I've been there for at least 4 years now. Is it good? N O O H H H ! I'm going there only for my mother, because she's always wanted me to be one of the Sanurians. But mom, that crap hole is killing me softly, and in a way, hardly.

4. Seattle and London might be my next destinations in life. I've been looking forward to studying abroad. And I hope, next year I could move already to either Seattle or London. Well, Seattle dominates, since London..... it takes a lot to sacrifice to live there, no?

5. To be honest, I've never fallen for someone this hard and bad. I love Michael Chrisani, yes, he's been the best boyfriend a girl like me could ever have. He's always there, though he can get really annoying - the time I really wish I could kick his ass, sometimes. But he's cute and nice :)

Boy.. I could never imagine how would I live and move on without you. Promise me the word forever is in our hands.

6. I used to love scene. Well, I still but indie dominates :)

cute as hell, no?

7. I've never find the pleasure wearing skirts. Except my school's skirts. Haha like seriously, how do girls find it easy and nice? I 'sit' just like that... and I don't want my undies to be shown and seen. Spooky.

8. I wish MORE THAN having a will to make my wishes happen. Well, doesn't anyone do that?

9. I'm more a daddy's little daughter. Doesn't mean I don't love my mom, but I just think that my father takes the very first place in my heart, comes up next, mother. Even though my father spoils me, remember, I don't like to be spoiled. I am an independent girl!

10. My favorite formula ever, 779 + yellow alien & me = infinity.

11. I am more a social studies student. I love socializing. Well, I still enjoy doing Maths and Chemistry papers though. I love studying Biology, too. But Physics? It can kiss my ass though ;)

12. CHECK THEM OUT ON GOOGLE: Rafael Nadal, Matthew Goode, Christofer Drew, and Adam Young>

omigosh omigosh ADAM YOUNG I WANNA EAT YOU ;D

13. I love to be alone in rainy days. It makes me wonder how life's been really good and beautiful. But I hate lightnings and thunders, not that I am afraid of them, but they just simply disturb me, like a lot. I love watching the raindrops. I've always wished to run in the rain with the one I love :)

14. See, I wish just too much! >:(

MIKEILY.

PLEASE, STOP

2010-02-27T19:07:00.000-08:00

you know, i thought it would never happen again. but it happened, last night.

i completely have no idea what was wrong, or what has been wrong with you. we were alright. we were, we really were. you promised me you wouldn't do such thing, but you did it again anyways. don't hang me up here.. don't, it's killing me.

you know i love you with all my heart. and you tell me back that you feel the same way. then last night, you told me you just didn't feel the rush anymore, but you still felt the loving feeling. so what's the problem now? please, don't drive me nuts and insane, i'm already a nutfuck.

i believe in you. think wisely. i'm giving you time to think. and i promise, i'm gonna let you to have it your way now. so if you're going away from my life now... then i guess it's time for me to start learning how to let you go without burdens.

if it comes to an end...

and if you happen to read this,

i just want to tell you thanks for all you've done to me. it's been a pleasure to know you, and to be a part of your life. i'm happy to know, to have, and to be yours.

but i know, when there's a hello, there ought to be a goodbye.

last, it's gonna take me a really long time to move on.

hey, i love you with all my heart, remember?

i love you, m.

7210

2010-02-07T06:35:00.000-08:00

"You're my something,

You're my everything,

You're the one who makes me feel alive

You end my suffering,

You end my misery,

You're the one who makes me feel alive

You can run, you can run, you can run away,

But I would find you,

and convince you to stay,

You're the one who can warm me up again,

I swear I'll let you in."

I know we expected more than this. I know we've been waiting for today, the day we turn to be 7 months old. But I know we had a bad day. You can see, we didn't really talk, we got into fight, we swore, we mocked each other.

But my feelings never change,

And you can call me everything you want,

But don't ever say those two words. Two strong words that drive me down,

Hate and break up.

You know how much you mean the world to me. You definitely know. And I've told you thousand times, but why can't you understand? You were the one who hated it a lot when I said, "I hate you," and "So what do you want now? A break up? Then go for it." But I have no idea how time can change you THAT fast. I really don't. Now you're the one who keeps on saying those strong words. YOU'RE THE ONE.

You happen to be the one who stops me from crying, yet the one who makes me cry.

I don't hate you for it. I never hate you. I never have, I never do, I never will. I promise you that. But please, promise me a thing. Think twice before typing or saying something. Because what you've typed, what you've said, those words hurt me a lot.

Yet,

I am speechless now.

I thought today would be another good day for us,

but in fact, it was not and it wouldn't be.

FROM FRIEND TO BOYFRIEND

2010-01-28T05:50:00.000-08:00

Year nine,
and now year ten,
you're mine,
now and then.

I WOOF YOU

2010-01-28T05:42:00.000-08:00

You might hate the caption above,

but hey,
I'm just gonna tell you one thing (:

I love you till pigs could fly.

PSSH...

2010-01-26T23:22:00.000-08:00

Baby, I fake smile. And I enjoy that.

But don't tell anyone.. they don't have to know. :)

AND I MISS YOU

2010-01-26T22:37:00.000-08:00

"Through the trees,
I will find you,
I will heal
The ruins left inside you,
Cause I'm still here breathing now,
I'm still here breathing now,
Until I'm set free...

Take my breath,
As your own,
Take my eyes,
To guide you home"

Dear, I know we made mistakes. And you can blame it all on me. But here I am asking you, who am I? I'm just another sinner who keeps on doing sins, and you're too... I'm sorry I keep on hurting you, but I never intend to.

Look, I love you. I need you. I want you. I adore you. There's no way for me to hurt you.

But if I did.. I am truly sorry. And I'm willing to be forgiven.

Dear...
If it comes to an end, I'm just telling you, I'm not ready for any break up. I do not want any. I might sound selfish but, that's what I feel. I still need you in me, and I can't seem to face tomorrows without you. You know I'm not good at building words, but these words come straight from my heart. These are no bullshits!

I might not have been a good girlfriend for you, but you've been the best boyfriend a girl like me could ever have. I'd do anything just to change myself. I know I'm no good, but I am trying to be better, better than yesterdays.

After all dear...
"Lo siento," "I love you,"
Those are two sentences I want you to hear.

PERANGKO SANUR

2010-01-23T07:27:00.000-08:00

I actually did write this post like... on Sunday's night but, I simply forgot to publish the post....

Ok people, gonna post everything about Perangko (Pesan Perdamaian dan Gerakan Sosial), an event made by SMA Santa Ursula Jakarta.

To be honest, I could not be ANY prouder. I've been studying here, in Santa Ursula for more than three years now. And at first, I thought this school sucked more than any other school did. But just so you people know, once you intimidate my school, you're a loser!
Meh, not that I am intimidating your school too, but I'm telling the truth!

There were bunches of activities you might have joined, liked, an interest in. There were graffiti mural, design your own stamp, pimp your bag, speech, photography, and last but not least, band. Seriously, dude, for those who did not come, or more, did not want to come to Sanur today, you guys sucked a lot! JK. You guys are going to regret this after all.

My dearest yellow alien got to come, and he was incredibly satisfied. :)

DUMPING

2010-01-19T03:23:00.000-08:00

They might think I'm happy and I'm doing just fine. But I'm telling you, they effing don't know what's inside my heart. They'd never know, because I'd never show it off to them. I'm fake. I fake smile. I can act happy when I'm secretly dying, bleeding inside. Don't judge and blame me, because it's just hard for me to show them my tears.

You might think I'm too emotional and childish, but when you're in my shoes.. you're dead.

LAST NIGHT.
You told me you'd never do it again. Yes, you did not dump me, but you WANTED to. I could not be any sadder. Last night was the second worst. My heart hurt, you should know. It might've been broken.

I just don't get it,
Why were you doing that to me?

Lemme tell you a thing I believe,
If you loved me, you'd not do such thing.

I AM SIXTEEN

2010-01-09T08:37:00.000-08:00

Yay! I been sixteen for three days now, and I'm enjoying it. No, not really.

I still feel the 'fifteen' deep inside me. Not that I am not ready to be sixteen but.. it's just it. A year has passed, and I can't believe I'm going to be seventeen next year. Which means, I'm gonna get older, and I'm gonna have to keep my parents' trust more. Which is.. not easy.

Meh, I did not really celebrate it. I went for a dinner with my family and Ko Andrew at Hard Rock Cafe EX. Did not go well, I guess. My dad got stressed out with this heavy music, and he asked us to be such in a hurry. But no problemo for me. But I AM really going to celebrate it with my beloved ones. ;)

The very first words that came thru my mind on January 6,

Am I this fucking old?

Hahaha. Go laugh your ass out! But I feel old, since most of my best friends are still in their fifteens. I've got a regret over my foolishness in the 2009. I did stupid things, I messed up, I fell in love..

And anyways..

I cried on my birthday. Am I funny? Yessh baby.

Happy birthday to me. Wish me a good.. sweet sixteen.

FRAGILITY

2010-01-03T22:52:00.000-08:00

My heart is just like a glass, that's why I call it fragile.

I thought last night would never come. The end was there, it was there. It happened, between us. It happened between me and you. It took us five months and 28 days to build our relationship, and it only took you 20 minutes, or even 15 minutes to goddamn break it up.

Yes, I wasn't, I have never been, I am not a tough act to follow.

I'm fucking tell you, I am not that kinda girl who forgets things easily. Do I wish I was a forgetful person? SO MUCH!

You dumped me. You really did. And did you want to get back at first? You did not.

You told me you loved me. You did. You fucking did. I knew it. You dumped me, but then you said it was because you loved me. It was not the best option. It was the worst.

Only if you could hear my tears..

Only if you could see my tears..

Only if you could feel my tears..

You been the best buddy, yet the best boyfriend a girl like me could ever have. And I am neither joking, nor lying. The words came thru my deepest hard. I am no good at lying, and you know that. I could never, ever, lie to myself.

Then we made up. After I asked for A chance. A chance.

I asked for it a countless time. I couldn't even count how many times I asked you out.

Yes.. you hurt me.

Last night was painful. So stop. I can still feel the pain,

I'm even crying.....

hello :D

2009-12-24T03:44:00.000-08:00

First, shut up.

I know it's been a while since my last post. And now.. here I am, at a lounge. Waiting for my name to be called. Yessum, Imma leaving for China at 8 tonight. Yessum, I don't feel like going at all.

I been at the airport for.. at least two hours now. And I've missed my comfy bed.. my pc, dvds, my room, my stitch, my home.. my lovelies, and my boyfriend. We haven't met, yes. And it's killing me. I wish we could meet up, I wish I could hug him. Because last Saturday might be the last day I hugged him this year.

Why does time run that fast. This is ridiculous. But what about us? We stand still. We ain't move.

Sorry for randomming. I randomize easily.

FOR MY DEARIE
MICHAEL CHRISANI
ILY
IMY
INY
IWY (: (:

I'm going to miss you so fucking nuts.

I woof you. Yes I really do.

i give up on the fight

2009-11-24T03:21:00.000-08:00

i don't wanna start another fight, because i know i will lose. i always do.

i'm just gonna let you win, win over me. if it's what will make you happy.

plan is just a plan, plan changes. and it's all ended up with you not understanding me at all.

i'll be here, waiting for you, but you don't seem to understand what i'm talking about.

we were so in sync. we were.

mood

2009-10-31T07:21:00.000-07:00

this picture definitely represents my mood right now. unpredictable, and messed up.

fankyou.

desire

2009-10-31T07:18:00.001-07:00

i so know we are not okay. we haven't talked in hours. and you're mad, right at me.

i'm sorry for ruining our boring weekend. i real am sorry. didn't mean to do so. but who am i? i feel dead now. i feel like having a new life, a new good life. i feel like moving out from this hellass. i need something new, something that is able to refresh me from this boredom.

i. need. to. get. out.

i'm posting this shit, yes. i don't mean to show how stressed i am right now.

i only need to talk to someone. and posting this is somehow a.. right way to express my feeling.

adiosx.

periods D:

2009-10-16T07:35:00.000-07:00

let's see how many of you hate periods. man, i raise my hand. i hate periods, i hate the tummy ache, i hate the badmood. i hate to be such in a badmood, happiness is always around me, i just don't like the way badmood throws the good mood just like that.

screw you period. may you rest in peace. x

20092009

2009-09-20T05:46:00.000-07:00

another good day in this september!

i love mike today, on 20092009

i love mike tomorrow,

i love mike next week,

i love mike next month,

i love mike next year,

i love mike next decade,

i love mike next century,

i love mike next forever :D

yesterday: (Y)

2009-09-12T20:01:00.000-07:00

Awww freedom had come. And so had happiness. I was supposed to be going out with ernielly, abbey, cindy and momo, but anyways the girls finally didn't get to come, so I got to meet my boo all alone &heart; (man i wish there was this hearty sign)

We watched Final Destination, and he seemed to be a little.. chicky? I saw it from his reaction! Hahah now I know that he can't help it when watching a thrilly-that-kinda-movie.

What's oh so special about yesterday;

I hugged him for such a long-long-long, long, long, long time. Iloveyouboo!

this is what cheers me up :-)

2009-09-10T19:54:00.000-07:00

Via BBM

"Nanti lu jangan aneh2 di sekolah ya."

"Iya dut, g keep diri g cuman untuk lu kok."

"Bye."

"Good luck ulangannya ya, ilysm."

Via MSN

"Eh janjikan gw sesuatu dongg.."

"Apaan?"

"Jangan pernah tinggalin gw."

"Iya bawel. Itu mestinya lu yg janji sama g."

"Yaudah gw juga janji."

no more exams within two days!

2009-09-10T19:50:00.001-07:00

Yaaay one more day then I'm done with everything, weekend's coming, two more tests to go!

Hey who doesn't like it when freedom is about to come? The guy/gay/girl must be insane, truly insane. I'm in a happy mood, last night was insanely good, today's exams were okay, but one stupid mistake couldn't be resisted.

Maths and Sociology tomorrow,

wish me luck, loves?

jealousy was here

2009-09-10T19:48:00.000-07:00

Tell me the truth,

Which girl doesn't hate it when her boyfriend is hugged by a bitch? Even though the guy doesn't want it to be so.

te amo, te quiero

2009-09-08T21:01:00.001-07:00

Yup I also took this picture. This is my fave, among the others. Idk why but I just love this picture, teehee. The color, the structure, the motive.. the meaning. I have posted three posts today, so this is the last one!

Three more days to freedom!

Tomorrow: chemistry and kwn sooo wish me luck.

I can't wait till saturday, gonna meet him up! Woot woot woot. Hope nothing will bother. I'm signing off so, have a good day. Happy 999!

Oh yes. I oh so love today 090909,

It's been a goodie day so far. Wish tomorrow would be even better, mhmm. Wells.. adios!

pictures of the mean time

2009-09-08T20:47:00.001-07:00

i have been working on my canon eos 500d, got these pictures last saturday, my dad was all like, "whoah wowsome, you should work on it more."

so anyways.. these are my working. enjoy!

oh, click on my deviantArt

the sky is so blue. fly me there?

glass of love (1); t'estimo

glass of love (2); ti amo

different languages, one meaning, i love you

monkey has feelings too

add mi bbm!

2009-09-08T20:45:00.000-07:00

hey i just got my blackberry last saturday, anyways, add my pin

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three months old

2009-09-08T20:31:00.000-07:00

Please don't leave me

Please don't leave me

I always say how I don't need you

But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please don't leave me

Pink - Please Don't Leave Me

Oh we've been together for two months now! 779 - 799 - infinity :) Well I really, actually thought it would be a good day, but too bad it wasn't. It was just another bad day for us, we were moody, anger was all around us, we fought, we didn't talk for a while. I was all like..

"Man how much I wish it wasn't our two months! It should've been all better than this. It should have been nice, we should have met up today.. But something sure has ruined it all. Whatever it is, fuck you."

But anyways, lucky we are alright now. Thank you for last night, you pretty much cheered me up. You pretty much set me on fire. Thanks for the love, thanks for the wish.

Mike, you've been the best boyfriend a girl could ever have. I never loved anyone with all my heart, but now you have my heart. Every single part of it.

-> What does he have that we don't have?

&heart; He has my heart, you guys don't.

As simple as that, you have got my heart now, happy?

I wish our three months wouldn't be this bad, kay? We should meet up on our three months. WE REALLY SHOULD! Te quiero el nuevo :) will always do. No need to ask me to love you, because I already know, and I already do.

I wish I could hug you now :(

everlasting love

2009-08-30T05:50:00.000-07:00

michael chrisani i love you :)

between javelin, bold, and tour

2009-08-30T05:45:00.000-07:00

OH CRAP! OH MADASS.

I hated blackberries, at first. But now I feel like buying one, since some of my friends, and my family, have asked me to get a bb. 'Duhh dude, blackberry is a must, at least for now,' they say. But anyways I have got my own iphone thennn what is it for if I get a new bb? I won't just throw it away and dump it just like that. I got it from myself.

:(

tffny wllm

2009-08-24T07:54:00.001-07:00

P.s.
You may think this kind of thing is boring, I thought it might be really boring. But anyways, I took the quiz, I got the result, and I shocked because the result was 'so' me. Give yourself a try!

Instructions:
1. Open this website: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
2. Take the Personality Test (it's VERY short and easy, really)
3. Copy Paste the result to Facebook.
4. Tag twenty of your friends, including me =]

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

dear michael chrisani

2009-08-21T06:14:00.000-07:00

Thanks God Its Friday! :D

And anyways, thanks for today. I had such a good day with you, and I just reckoned that I love you even more. Thank you for the love that you have been sharing with me, and duhhhhh haha i just don't kno why i adore today. Its likeee, something has changed and i'm loving it.

Overall,

I adore you

Ilylno.

Bold

2009-08-21T06:07:00.000-07:00

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don't bold is false.

01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions.
02. I don't watch much TV these days.
03. I love psychodelic mushrooms.
04. I love sleeping.
05. I have loads of books.
06. I once slept in a toilet.
07. I love playing video games.
08. I adore marijuana.
09. I watch porn movies.
10. I watch them with my father.
11. I like sharks.
12. I love spiders, I think they're adorable, especially the ones with bright colours on their backs.
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair.
14. I like J. Bush.
15. People are cool.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have jacuzzi and a Porsche.
18. I have a lot to learn.
19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself.
20. I'm really really smart.
21. I've never broken someone's bones. - I've broken someone's teeth, does it count?
22. I have a secret.
23. I hate snow.
24. I drink only milk.
25. Punk rock rules.
26. I hate Bill Gates!
27. I love Chinese food.
28. I would hate to be famous.
29. I am not a morning person.
30. I wear glasses.
31. I don't need glasses, except sunglasses.
32. I have potential.
33. I'm pure Japanese.
34. My legs are two different sizes i refuse to believe my legs are identical.
35. I have a twin.
36. I wear a padded bra.
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing.
38. I'm left-handed. - used to be a righty and left though, does that count? :)
39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them.
40. I don't like horror movies.
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway.
42. People hate me usually.
43. I love pop music.
44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight.
45. I hate parking fines.
46. I know national anthem of my country by heart.
47. I know more than two languages.
48. I spend too much time on the computer.
49. I often want to throw out the computer in a window.
50. I live on a ground floor.
51. I don't like chocolate.
52. I'd like to be more original.
53. I've lied.
54. Cocks are my favorite birds.
55. I want to conquer the world.
56. I wonder what happens when you die.
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter.
58. Eat your dog!
59. I love to exercise.
60. I hate chemistry with a passion.
61. I love to write.
62. I like changes. -the good ones, pretty please?
63. I hate going to class.
64. I am afraid to die.
65. I hate dish washing.
66. My hair is long, brown, and incredibly curly.
67. My nails are nine inch long.
68. My favorite color is black.
69. I like to sleep on the floor.
70. I am hopeless at cooking.
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little.
72. I should be doing something else rather than writing this.
73. I am online a lot, but not in MSN.
74. I hate government.
75. I don't have a girlfriend/boyfriend.
76. I'm too nice for my own good.
77. I love to read, I read as much as I can.
78. I don't trust newspapers.
79. I like debating.
80. I live in a vagon.
81. I clean my room once a month.
82. I'm scared of American fast food.
83. I have a third eye.
84. I love Mozambique.
85. I don't trust any religion.
86. I used to play with Barbies because all the other girls were doing it.
87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little.
88. I like listening to wind chimes.
89. I'm very disorganized.
90. My hair is long and straight.
91. I earn a lot.
92. I don't like spicy food.
93. I keep a diary.
94. I can't do cartwheels.
95. I am very lazy.
96. I'm sarcastic.
97. I think my hair is annoying.
98. I'm very sensitive.
99. I love being "ab-normal."
100. My left eye is violet and my right eye is a light blue

from the a to the z

2009-08-21T05:48:00.000-07:00

A

Available: nope, taken and enjoying it :)
Age: three times five
Annoyance: influenza!
Animal: baby penguins
B
Birthday: january 6
Best Friends: michael chrisani, ernielly leo, saraswati gabriela, myra beatrice, evelyn faustina, clara tania
Best feeling in the world: in love!
Been in Love: oh yeah
Been on stage: mhmm
Believe in Magic: yes but unsure
Believe in Miracles: miracles do happen
Believe in Santa: oh yes i talked to santa claus last christmas
C
Candy: gummy bears?
Color: neon green!
Chocolate/Vanilla: would say both but.. depends on my mood
Chinese/Mexican: spanish? lmao
Cake or pie: apple pie!
Continent/Country to visit: united kingdom, spain, and united states
Cheese: cheesy tooth :)
D
Day or night?: night!
Dance in the rain: oh hell yes, why not. it seems to be fun?
E
Eggs: omelette!
Eyes: black dark brownish
Ever failed a class: luckily no, i'm a geek, ya know.
F
Full name: Tiffany William
First thoughts waking up: gotta start a new day apple pie, with momo and friends! <3
Food: japanese and italian
G Greatest Fear: coulrophobia and trypanophobia
Goal: to get a new macbook pro
Get along with your parents: yeah
Good luck charm: don't have any
H
Hair Color: black dark brownish
Height: 5' 4''
Happy: yeah :-)
How do you want to die: with him.
I
Ice Cream: yogurt is like.. way better, juggalo!
Instrument: guitar
J
Jewelry: friendship bracelets, rubbery bracelets!
Job: businesswoman, something that's about politics
K
Kids: toddlers. gotta love em like chocolate!
Kickboxing or karate: tennis
Keep a journal: nope, blog is better
L
Longest Car Ride: jakarta surabaya, singapore malaysia
Love: michael chrisani
Letter: nopee
Laughed so hard you cried: yeah it's like.. occasionally!
M
Milk flavor: belgian chocolate
Movies: comedies, action, and horror
Motion Sickness: aye
McD’s or BK: burger king! foosho
N
Number of Siblings: 2
Number of Piercings: none - -'
Number: 779
O
One wish: three more wishes, please?

-to be with him forever and a day

-macbook pro!

-to meet santa claus in real life. daddy as a santa is getting boring!

P
Perfect Pizza: ham and cheese, meat lover (Y)
Pepsi/Coke: 7up
Q
Quote: loving you is like breathing, how can i stop?
R
Reality TV: the simpsons and american idol
Radio Station: amm idk.. prambors?
Roll your tongue in a circle: yeah, i'm gewd
Ring size: what lol
S
Song: chris daughtry - what about now
Shoe size: 4.5
Salad Dressing: cheese and thousand islands
Skipped school: never, i'm a geek ya know
Slept outside: yeah, at camp. does that count?
Shower daily: oh yeah hahaha that is why i don't stink
Sing well: why not :)
Swear: occasionally. when needed
Strawberries/Blueberries: blackberry! lol
T
Time for bed: i don't really have a timer for going to bed. i sleep when i feel like that
Thunderstorms: storms are horrible already, and now you're asking about thunderstorms? sickness
U
Unpredictable: i'm pretty much predictable. really.

V
Vacation spot: fly me to united kingdom, please
W
Weaknesses: hmmm idk
Worst feeling: losing someone
Wanted to be a model: nooo
Worst weather: humid
X
X-Rays: yes
Ex's: i don't really count
Y
Year it is now: 2009
Yellow: and neon green are my fave colors :D
Z
Zoo animals: penguins. do they have them at the zoo?

three!

2009-08-20T08:11:00.000-07:00

THREE NAMES I GO BY
♥ Tiffany
♥ William
♥ Tew

THREE JOBS I HAVE HAD IN MY LIFE
♥ Full time kid
♥ Part time loner
♥ A good friend

THREE PLACES I HAVE LIVED
♥ TangLin Park, Singapore
♥ Astoria Apartment, Sydney
♥ Kemayoran

THREE TV SHOWS THAT I WATCH
♥ The Simpsons
♥ American Idol
♥ Futurama

THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO
♥ Spain
♥ United Kingdom
♥ United States!

THREE OF MY FAVORITE FOODS
♥ Japanese food
♥ Italian food
♥ Apparently, I'm truly an omnivore, I eat everything

THREE THINGS I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO
♥ My birthday, dude
♥ 1st anniversary with momo? Mwahaha
♥ The newest season of The Simpsons

THREE FAVORITE BANDS/SINGERS
♥ Nevershoutnever!
♥ Nada Surf
♥ Cash Cash

THREE FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH
♥ Tennis
♥ Badminton
♥ Rugby? Lol soccer, please.

THREE FAVORITE DRINKS
♥ Yogurt
♥ Lime juice
♥ Avocado juice

THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE
♥ 61
♥ 779
♥ 275

THREE PETS THAT YOU HAVE OWNED
♥ Fish
♥ Chihuahua
♥ Hamsters and tortoises

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE
♥ Macbook pro, please!
♥ An unlimited plane ticket to everywhere.
♥ Diana F+ lomo camera

THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR HANDBAG/BAG
♥ iPhone
♥ Wallet
♥ Bubble gums

THREE FAVORITE COLORS
♥ Neon green
♥ Purple orange
♥ Neon blue

quotes of the meantime

2009-08-20T07:38:00.000-07:00

Yeah, I do consider cute sayings as quotes. These are real, got them outta my mouth, and their.

"i love you so much."
"i love you more."
"i love you the most."
"i love you to the moon and back. reply me, ha."
momo& i.

"like sister, you know, an idiot has its own idiotic dream. and i assume that you know who am i talking about."
"who are you talking about? big sister?"
"no, it's you."
"oh, okay. well.. mom, am i an idiot?"
anthony& i.

"go kill parashit!"
X3

"love is 831. it has 8 letters, 3 words, and 1 meaning."

"everything means nothing when i'm lost without you."

"saya pelajar imbisil yang mengidap euforia tidak tertahankan."

"crap i'm seriously mad at you right now. like, have you ever thought that you're part of me, you're my other half? so if you die, i die."
"i just want you to know that i will love you till the last second in my life. i will hold you tight in my arms. dut g sayang bgt sm luu"
momo& i.

one sentence for lover

2009-08-20T05:39:00.000-07:00

don't ever leave me all alone

sweet lover <3

2009-08-13T08:04:00.000-07:00

Mhmm true, it's been ages since I last posted craps here. And well, I guess I'm pretty much ready to start a new crappy writing.

I was pretty much surprised when I knew we had been together for a month. Seriously, I thought we had been together for more than a month, but who guessed we had only been together for only a month. But anyways, being together for a month was pretty much hard, harder than I thought that would be. A month full of love, laughter, fight, and anger. But anyways, no doubt, they are actually what makes my love bigger, and wider.

We were given: Two hands to hold. To legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find.

sweet, right?

Well I guess it's enough for now?

I'll be continuing these things tomorrow.

I'll be updating these craps soon.

I'll be.. here, sooner or later.

my jerk and i. guess what, i love him and i'll always do,

and i mean it :) 779.

hello, gays

2009-07-15T04:35:00.000-07:00

Hey i guess it's been pretty much a long time since i last posted some craps here? Well.. here it goes the new one ;)

Remember the time when i told you it would never work out between me and my jerk? It was all wrong, now that i'm with him, well.. i've got to say that it's been nice with him. Haha thank you Jesus!

Anyway I've graduated from junior high! Which means i'm gonna be a high schooler, sooner or later. Yumm! Some say freshman's year ain't a fairytale, but at least, it can be fun, can't it? Trust me, freshmen, it's gonna be fun! We only need to enjoy the freshman's year, give it our best shots.
Whoa. The words are too heavy, hahaha.

Oh by the way, i took like two pictures using my webcam couple days ago, and i just realized that i am and was a total retard. I mean like, come on, look, i look retarded and that's all i know. Sweet living Jesus - -' oh crap, so let's say i was born to be a retard? Oh no! Let's see this picture,

tsk tsk tsk, okay now, what d'ya say?

Oh anyways no need to tell me, i guess i know the answers already, hahaha.

OMFrankGerardddd. I love my yellow alien effing much! For sure, no kidding, no jokes, it's all real. Apparently, i've found someone that is more lovable than.. matthew goode (?) haha yes!

For mochi, if you read this; i love you, jerk (:

hello, goodbye

2009-06-12T21:41:00.000-07:00

Another random picture of me and Ernielly Leo :)

People think we're twins, but well, we're not. But we do agree if they say we look alike, we're just identical. Teehee. Anyway, I love you nel :D But I do love chocolate cupcakes more, mweh I'm kidding!

Well.. enough for the soft opening.

I've been feeling sad lately. Well, I'm not really sad but, I just can't help the feeling of missing someone. I've been missing people easily. Like, even though I talk to the kids everyday, but there's still something weird in me.

Anyways.. for someone that's in my heart,

I love you. But I know that I won't be able to own you.

pictures of the day [?]

2009-06-05T23:03:00.000-07:00

Haaa, I'm in love with Photoshop CS2, hahaa. I dunno why. I've been into editing pictures to lomo-like these days. Well, here it goes my masterpieces ;D

Wanna see more?

Clicko! Tiffyheroine on DeviantArt.

this ain't perfect, I know. But anyway, at least I've tried my best ;) and ohhh, the pics are all original. No fakes :)

Iloveyou<3

my non eccentric weekend

2009-06-05T22:40:00.000-07:00

D'ohhhh, it's only been two days since the short journey but I've missed the time quite terribly. The sweet moments, the kids, and the time we spent together :x shoot something is definitely wrong with me, I miss people easily. Mweeeeh..

And now I'm dumped here. Well, I'm not really dumped, I'm just doomed here, at home, doing nothing, I'm only watching my sister's laptop's monitor, writing this junk, and texting with mimi. Naww.. I wish time could go faster. I'd rather go to my gran's place now, than sit all alone here.

I'm wondering something..

Why do they call me an emo? I mean like, I'm not that introvert kinda person, I'm more to extrovert, I socialize with people a lot. I get along with random people - or call them stranger, easily. I don't really cry easily. Well, yes, I'm pretty fragile, but I don't do cutting.

How weird..

Anyways,

I'm sorry for this random topic, yeah? I just didn't know what to do, and writing this junk seemed pretty interesting to me, tehehe.

I miss my brother so bad..

Nawww.. he's been away to Palembang since four days ago..

No his screaming voices.. no his tricks and pranks..

How much I miss him.

Urgh you dumb ass, why should I miss a piece of junk like you :x

Well I'm kidding. But I miss you, moron.

Go home as soon as possible..

*Hugssss

should not have liked that kid

2009-06-05T08:31:00.000-07:00

Well you are the one, the one that lies close to me.

Whispers "Hello, I've missed you quite terribly."

I fell in love, in love with you suddenly.
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms.
La, la, la......

Ahemm.. here it goes this bizarre question, well, it's not really bizarre, awkward, or let's say dumb and stupid but,

Have you ever liked someone, but you know that you should not like your crush? Well, I have, but I don't even know why do I like him. I just like his personality. The way he talks to me, the way he acts, he doesn't pretend to be someone else. He has shown me a lot of new things, new point of views, and stuffs.

Anyway, just don't ask me who is the guy, or why do I like him, because the answer will always be, d'oh, I don't know, okay?

He told me he liked me back, but we knew that we should not have liked each other. Well, that's right. Liking or loving someone doesn't mean we have to own him or her. That saying is quite right, it fits me. We know we should not own each other, we're best friends, we're best mates, best mates stick forever. But lovers? Lovers just don't stick forever, well, some do, only if they are lucky.

Probably,

We just don't want to lose each other, that's why we shouldn't own each other.

Well.. if you know you're the one, here I'm going to tell you. I like you as my crush, but I'm just gonna love you as my best friend. Because I just don't want to lose you, and for some reason, I just know we shouldn't own each other. Let's just not leave each other, yea?

Because you're so goddamn precious.

my short but sweet little journey, puncak.

2009-06-04T22:51:00.000-07:00

Those who were going, sure know what does this quote mean :D

Mimi: You're witty.
Me: You're wittier.
Mimi: You're the wittiest.
Me: Okay we both are witty. That's it.

There were five of us, me, Saras, Enel, Clara and Mimi. Plus my mom, so it was six. But

just don't count my mom, so make it five.

We had lotsa fun. Well, here it goes the journey. I'm just gonna make it fast and short, since there is a lot to tell and write. And I'm not sure if this post fits on a page.

Day one

Saras called me at 8.30 am, and the ring tone sure woke me up. I didn't answer the phone, since when I was about to answer the phone, she hung up. She texted me, she said that she was already on her way to my home. Wtf it was only 8.30 am and she was already on her way? She told me she would be on her way around 9.30 am the day before!

I still had not taken a shower when she arrived. Well, then she asked me to take a shower. Mimi came up when I was taking shower. I heard them laughing at my pictures when I was a loser-kid, haha. The third who came up was Clara, with her laughable outfit. Everyone was pretty much shocked looking at her outfit, no offense. Everyone gasped. Foshoo. Enel was the latest. Lucky we didn't leave her away, hahaha.

We still had to wait for my mom, she hadn't even taken a shower and packed her things when we were already ready. We waited for her for around 45 mins something, I guess? Then we took off at 12 pm.

We had some snacks at Cimory. Didn't really it, I was using my goddamn retainer and it hurt a lot. So I ended up with watching them having their snacks, ha. We arrived at the villa at 3 pm something.

We cleaned up the room, we decided to sleep together with mom. Haha I was like, 'Mom you sure you're gonna sleep with us? I'm not sure if we're gonna sleep early, btw.' And she just nodded. Without incredulity that kinda feeling. Then we went to Sudi Mampir, wasted our free time there, played capsa, cangkul, setan, and another playing cards stupid games. It was fun playing cards together. Enel got to be the ghost for two times! :3 weehee.

We had dinner at somewhere I forgot the name of the place, and before we went home, we had to wait for my mom going to the supermarket, buying some food and snacks, and we laughed a lot in the car at something nonsense.

Saras: Dude, you still remember Harry Wurden from My Bloody Valentine murdering innocent people?
Me: Yep, clearly.

Someone in black jacket crept and passed quickly, without any clear sounds.

All: KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWR

Yep, we could feel the car moving and shaking. Ha. We went home. Arrived at 8 pm. We took a shower, went down, watched Norbit but didn't finish it at all. We went upstairs, talked and shared our things up, ended up with laughing and mom yelling and asking us to turn our volume down. We took pictures, and wait, I'm just gonna upload them here, okay.

what the heck is he doing?

Anyway sorry for the bad quality, yea? Because they were taken by phone's camera. But they're not too bad-looking, are they?

Well, I still have lotsa another pictures. They're just coming up.

We kept on talking until 3 am. Mom was already asleep. She didn't feel uncomfy at all, teehee! Clara slept the first, Enel and Saras were the next ones, and Mike and me were the latest. We didn't want to disturb the others who were already sleeping, so we continued the conversation by texting. Kinda dumb, I know, but we had not felt any sleepy, so, you know :D

Day two

We woke up at 8 am something, had breakfast: toast and a glass of milk. Went to the tea garden, rode on horses. Clara was really, really afraid of riding her horse. Her 'Angel'. So she was on the back. She always asked the rider of the horse to keep an eye on her and the horse. Hahaha. And oh, she always screamed too.

We calmed her down. She didn't really talk to us, since she was pretty much afraid. Well, we had fun and we enjoyed riding on the horses :) It was fun. I rode on Grace, a black-dark-brownish horse which came from Australia. The rider said her dad was a France horse, and she was only five years old, but SHE WAS GODDAMN HUUUUGE! :D

They knew I wanted to fly kites and stuffs, so they bought three kites, and bubbles.

We had lunch, we had something traditional food to eat, and shoot, once again, I forgot what the name of the restaurant. Urgh, I hate this short-term-memory-syndrome :( mweeeh, but I promise I'll tell you here if I've remembered what the name is, okay? Just don't forget to remind me :)

Then we went to ride on the parachutes. I didn't go for it, I had to accompany my mom. She was alone. She didn't want to ride on the parachute as well, no, it doesn't mean she was afraid of riding it or what, she had already ridden on the parachutes, but she just didn't have any cash left. Hahaha. I wasn't afraid either, I had already ridden on it too. The guys had lotsa fun. Well, the pictures are still on my camera, and I haven't synced them to my pc, so the pics are coming up, okay? :D

We went home. But too bad the rain fell down :( so we could not fly any kites. Clara went home, too bad. She had to go home because she had this kind of primary school reunion and she had to come. So yeaaa, mweeeh. It wasn't that fun without her, since we didn't have anyone left to be bullied. Hahaha, no offense, again! Since we still had Mimi.

The fog was really thick. We couldn't see anything clearly. The garden was full of fog, and it was pretty cold. We played the bubbles things, we danced, and we acted like Samwell. Mom asked us to move inside, since it was no good for us to be outside, it was raining and there was this fog, right, so she was afraid of us getting sick. We went upstairs, we sat down, we shared, and some of us ended up with crying. I'm not going to tell who did cry.

We had dinner -> nasi uduk with traditional fried chicken. I was still hungry, since I didn't really have my lunch. I didn't eat much. I drank two glasses of milk. Teehee :3

Then we played monopoly. Hahaha mimi and saras got this stupid new nickname for Enel, jamet (janda medit). Well I'm not really sure about what the meaning was, but I'm pretty sure if the new nickname was kind of harsh. Hahaha. Enel was the richest girl, Saras was the poorest, me and mimi affiliated each other. I was the banker, but they said I wasn't a good banker, since I was too busy with my playing. I tried my best to win the game, since I had always won on playing Monopoly. But I guess I didn't win the game, haha. I lost my money. I had debts. Whatever. We were bored, so we ended up with playing domino. Enel and Saras won the most. Ftw, they didn't even know how to play domino at firs

t, me and Mimi lost the games a lot! :(

We went upstairs. We weren't really sleepy but mom asked us to sleep earlier, since we were going to fly the kites on the next day. Enel and Saras were the first ones to sleep. Just like usual, Mimi and me couldn't sleep. We texted, we whispered to each other, we laughed quietly, and we did random stupid things. We finally slept at 3.30 am, I wasn't sleepy at all, so I was the latest to sleep, again.

Day three

Mimi's mobile fell down the next morning, the accident woke us up. I didn't really wake up, I was too sleepy. I thought it was my mobile which fell down. Then we woke up, brushed our teeth, washed our faces, flew the kites, and had breakfast. It was hard to fly the kites, somehow. I actually had flown the kite really high, but then I asked mimi to overtake to fly the kite but he lost it. So the kite flew away. Well, the kite was Enel's. Saras fell down because of running too much, so we stopped, and we had to salve her wound. Mimi tried to fly the two other kites, but then he got them broken.

We were going home that day. We then took showers, had snacks and glasses of milk, packed our things, and took off. We had lunch at somewhere I forgot (d'oh). It was raining, heavily. Then we went home.. we sure would miss our little journey..

Puncak.. we're going to miss you.

it's time to open your eyes and start seeing around

2009-06-01T08:37:00.000-07:00

Time to tell me the truth

To burden your mouth for what you say

No pieces of paper in the way

Cause i cant continue pretending to choose

The opposite sides on which we fall

The loving you laters if at all

No right minds could wrong be this many times

Leave unsaid unspoken

Eyes wide shut unopened

You and me

Always between the lines

Between the lines

La - la - la..

Do you still remember the saying I told you,

'I loved you once, I love you still, I always have, I always will'?

Dear Mr. Somebody,

I'm just telling you, the saying will be everlasting and won't fade away. My feeling's still the same, I keep changing, to be a better person, but my feeling to you just never changes. I have no idea why, so just don't ask me why.

You seriously meant the world to me. Laugh all you want, but this is not a joke. I never kid about love-thing. But you disappeared all of a sudden, you said goodbye, you told me you felt like shit because of our feelings. I knew it would be difficult for us, but you didn't need to say goodbye, did you?

Now that you've come back, you tell me you're really sorry because of the things that have stricken us. Just to tell, I've accepted the apology you offered me.

Tiff: I thought you hated me. I thought you were avoiding me. I thought I was nothing for you anymore.
Somebody: Never.
Tiff: Just so you know I could never forget you.
Somebody: Do you still love me?
Tiff: You already know my answer.
Somebody: Thank, God.
Tiff: I've missed you, silly goose.
Somebody: I have too.
Tiff: Can I ask you something?
Somebody: Sure, go ahead.
Tiff: I'm pretty screwed up right now. And I'm just wondering what's making you start talking to me again.
Somebody: You wanna know the answer?

'Well, I saw on Facebook all those comments on your picture. And I remembered how long it had been since I talked to you. And then I realized how I missed talking to you.'

Tiff: Promise me something.
Somebody: Ask me everything.
Tiff: Don't ever say goodbye. Don't ever leave me. Even though we won't be able to be like what we were before.
Somebody: I promise you, I won't.

This conversation is real. It's neither my imagination nor my own story. Once again, it's no fake, it's real. It really happened.

How much I missed our old conversations. I'm glad I can talk to you again, now. I'm glad we can start another sweet conversations. Though you aren't here, I just can't help this feeling.

I miss you.

I need you.

I want you.

I love you.

I mean it a lot.

welcoming saras :D

2009-06-01T05:30:00.000-07:00

Another day to spend my weeks off. I got to meet my long-lost best friends, Saras, Yudi, and Aylin. The whole TISSUE WC were supposed to join in, but some of them just didn't show their noses for some reasons.

I arrived at GrandIndonesia at 12 pm something, I directly headed to Forever21, the place Saras wanted to meet at. Didn't take me a very long time to go there, and there we met! Hugged her so tight, as if I didn't want to let her go. *Dang, haha sorry if it sounds creepy? I don't mean to be a lesbian, okay, we're just friends and she's my best friend.*

It'd been a while since we last met. I missed her too bad. I've never had a best friend who lives faraway from me. Tbh, I have, but they're just not as close as her to me. She told me that Aylin was in Forever21 too, but we didn't find her on the second floor, so we went downstairs and found her there, looking at some clothes. There we hugged again! Jesus we, hugged a lot today <3 and I just loved the way we hugged each other, teehee. Aylin and Saras were craving for food, well I was, too, but not as much as they were. We had lunch at SushiGroove, I didn't eat a lot though, I had not felt like eating since two days ago, dunno why. Saras tried to call Yudi, just to make sure where he was in. We had a long-dumb-incredible-nonsense conversation to be exact, he didn't answer our questions well!

Saras: dude, where you at?
Yudi: I'm everywhere.
Saras: with who?
Yudi: with everyone.
Saras: Jesus, you'd better talk to him *passed the phone to me
Tiff: where you at?
Yudi: where am I?
Tiff: I know you're using your iphone but can you just stop showing it off? Just answer the questions quick, we haven't finished our meal!
Yudi: okaaay I don't know where am I now, okay?
Tiff: gee, *hung up.

We hung the phone up with madness and dejection. We remembered we hadn't finished the meal so we continued eating the meal. After few minutes, Yudi miscalled me, but I didn't know if he was calling me. There he appeared, and I have no idea why we were laughing at him. We just laughed at the way he walked on and the way he acted so gayish ;D Then he started to stare at us with his flurry eyes as if he was saying, 'Whatchu laughing attt, beetch.'

After the meal, we headed to Blitz, we were actually planning on watching either Angels And Demons or Night At The Museum, but the plan ended up with us watching My Bloody Valentine 3D. I actually had watched the dvd, but I was just curious how would the 3D be. We enjoyed the movie a lot. We found it a bit spooky at first, but then we started to laugh at how did the murder kill the victims and stuffs. I did think that Yudi had this weak heart since he always screamed when there was this screamy sound played. His screamy voice sure made us scream as well.

The movie lasted for around one and a half hours. After the movie, we went to the Food Louver, had some meal to fulfil our nearly-hungry-stomaches. I had a spoon of Aylin's noodle, and that was all. Haha Aylin and Yudi were such a temporary couple, they sat next to each other, and they had the same meal, and they wore black tees and glasses awhh how sweet.

OHHHH bytheway, we took lotsa pictures. Gonna upload it as soon as if I've got the pictures tagged by Aylin.

Haha anyway, I love today. Thanks for today, kay?

shit sure happens to happen

2009-05-31T10:26:00.000-07:00

Do I really screw people's life?

They tell me that that's the hardest question I've ever asked them. Is it really that hard? I only need them to answer 'yes' or 'no'. But they don't seem to understand what I'm trying to ask them. I don't ask for their opinions, critiques, comments, or should I say, 'I only need your yes, or your no.'

I may seem happy from the outside, but they just don't see the tears and sadness in me. The tears and sadness that I've been hiding. No, I'm neither starting to be an introvert that kinda girl, nor starting to keep the shits myself, I still do a sharing. I'm still me.

Dear, Mr. Somebody.

I don't know if I still have to trust you or not, since you've hurt me. You know you were meant something special to me, but then you hurt me just like that. You were nearly meant the world to me. You told me you adored me, but you said goodbye too fast, and as simple as blinking your pretty eyes. You started to message me back, you said sorry and other shits. But should I?

Please, if you understand about a girl's feeling, just don't be a heartbreaker, anymore. I'm begging you.